My Birthday and I'm goin' effin' nuts!

Why is it when my birthday's coming up I start to feel nauseous? Is it because I'm getting old? Almost having a quarter-life crisis? Nervous breakdown?

I used to love celebrating it, now I just want to get it over with. Yeah sure I get phonecalls and emails greeting me, I appreciate it a lot. But the thing is, I stopped celebrating my big day when I was on th 6th grade. I don't know what significant event happened. Maybe I just grew up too young.

Now i want to bring that enthusiasm back, I don't how but I'll find a way. How will I celebrate my birthday now? Run around the house all day in my birthday suit? Get trashed while barhopping? Spend all my money shopping?

I figured, the beach. Nah, too cold nowadays.

Maybe I should just go have dinner with friends.

Where are my friends?

Oh God....I'm nauseous again...

Jeff Fiorello - The Next Big Thing

Jeff Fiorello is an up-and-coming acoustic and rock singer/songwriter whos major influences are John Mayer, Jason Mraz, and Jack Johnson.

He is still starting to break out in the music business, currently he is putting the final touches for his debut self-titled album due out in October 2006.

His singles "The One", "Fall In Line", "Confidence", and "Come On" are all featured and receiving great reviews through his myspace profile

http://www.myspace.com/jefffiorello

See more info about this young troubadour at his official website:

http://www.jefffiorello.com

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

Taken from my WikiMusicGuide user page

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm. This is the deep and dying breath of,
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to,
So I can feel you in my arms. Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down and you can see it too.
We're going down and you know that we're doomed.
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me,
Baby you're the only light that I ever saw.

I make the most of all the saddness.
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me,
So you leave me feeling dirty cause you can't understand.

We're going down And you can see it too
We're going down And you know that we're doomed.
My dear, we're slowing dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it why don't you?
Go cry about it why don't you?
Go cry about it why don't you?

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room.
Don't you think we ought to know by now Don't you think we should've learned somehow?

I feel for this song. The lyrics just hit me hard. Of course looking into JM's point of view. I'm not the bitch!

From the latest album of John Mayer:

Hmm...interesting survey

LEVEL 1
(*) smoked a cigarette
(*) smoked a cigar
(*) done weed
(*) kissed a member of the same sex
(*) drank alcohol
SO FAR: 5

Level 2
(*) been in love
(*) been dumped
(*) shoplifted
(*) been fired
(*) been in a fist fight
SO FAR: 10

Level 3
(*) snuck out of a parent's house
(*) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(*) gone out on a blind date
SO FAR: 13

Level 4
(*) had a crush on an older person
(*) skipped school
(*) seen someone/something die -*animals eg. goats, dogs, and insects.
SO FAR: 16

Level 5
(*) had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTERfriends
( ) been to Paris
(*) been to Spain
(*) been on a plane
(*) thrown up from drinking
SO FAR: 20

Level 6
(*) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(*)been mosh pitting
SO FAR: 22

Level 7
(*) been in an abusive relationship
(*) taken pain killers
(*) love/like someone right now
(*) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes goby
( ) made a snow angel
SO FAR: 26

Level 8
(*) had a tea party
( ) flown a kite
(*) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(*) played dress up
SO FAR: 29

Level 9
(*) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(*) cheated while playing a game
(*) been lonely
(*) fallen asleep at work/school
SO FAR: 33

Level 10
(*) used a fake/someone else's ID
(*) watched the sun set
(*) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake
SO FAR: 36

Level 11
(*) been tickled
(*) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone *friends.
(*) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer
SO FAR: 39

Level 12
(*) won a contest
(*) been suspended from school
(*) had detention
(*) been in a car/motorcycle accident
SO FAR: 43

Level 13
( ) had/have braces
(*) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(*) had deja vu
(*) danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 46

Level 14
(*) hated the way you look
(*) witnessed a crime *some shooting and shoplifting
( ) pole danced
(*) questioned your heart
(*) been obsessed with post-it notes
SO FAR: 50

Level 15
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(*) been lost *all the time, baby.
(*) been to the opposite side of the world
(*) swam in the ocean
(*) felt like you were dying
SO FAR: 53

Level 16
(*) cried yourself to sleep
(*) played cops and robbers
(*) recently coloured with crayons/coloredpencils/markers
(*) sang karaoke
(*) paid for a meal with only coins
SO FAR: 58

Level 17
(*) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(*) made prank phone calls
(*) laughed until some kind of beverage came outof your nose
(*) kissed in the rain
SO FAR: 62

Level 18
(*)written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(*) watched the sun set with someone youcare/cared about
(*) blown bubbles
(*)made a bonfire on the beach
SO FAR: 66

Level 19
(*) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full ofpeople
(*)gone roller skating/ blading
(*) had a wish come true
( )humped a monkey
SO FAR: 69

Level 20
(*) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" at a football game.
( ) swimming with dolphins
SO FAR: 70

Level 21
( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(*) worn the opposite sex clothes
(*) Sat on a roof top
SO FAR: 72

Level 22
(*) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) can do a cartwheel
(*) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(*) stayed up all night
SO FAR: 75

Level 23
(*) picked and ate a fruit right off the tree
( ) climbed a tree
(*) had/been in a tree house
(*)aren't scared to watch scary movies alone
SO FAR: 78

Level 25
( ) believe in ghosts
(*) have/had more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streakingi (??)
( ) been in jail
(*) sneaked out of someone else's house

Total = 80/175 ---- not bad

This made me laugh

I wish my boobs were that big.....

Continuum out now!! Can't wait!!!


Love the shirt...

Vinci's First Birthday

That's Grimace!!

I always wondered what he was...an eggplant? purple root? year-old hershey's kiss? A battered & bruised teletubby? hhmm...

By the way, the party was great except that this mascot stinks like hell!! Did somebody die in side that suit?

Ever smelled wet laundry left inside the basement for a day??How about a wet dog? That's exactly what grimace smells like. But my kid loved him..so..ok.

Happy Birthday to my baby boy VINCI!!

A year old and he's still as cute as ever!

He loves biting the cap of his bottles.

Yummy yummy!!! Chocolate cake for everybody!!!


Incredibles you say? Well, that's the best one they had.

I like it though, matches the fudge cake I bought.

I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)

(From John Mayer's latest album - Continuum - out now)

No I'm not the man I used to be lately, See you met me at an interesting time.
And If my past is any sign of your future,
You should be warned before i let you inside.
Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with lovin you.

I will beg my way into your garden,
Then I'll break my way out when it rains,
Just to get back to the place where I started So I can want you back all over again
(I don't really understand)

Hold on to whatever you find baby Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with lovin you.

Who do you love? Girl I see through, through your love.
Who do you love?
Me or the thought of me?
Me or the thought of me?

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with lovin you.

Hold on to whatever you find baby Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with lovin you.
I don't trust myself with lovin you.
I don't trust myself with lovin you.
I don't trust myself with lovin you.


**I guess I don't really trust this person at all. I like him a lot and I adore his face a lot. I love being with him and spending all my time with him. But the thing is, when it gets too intimate, I really don't trust myself ...especially when I start to fall in love with him. If you're reading this, I'm sorry. We can never get past that thin line anymore.**

I'm just trying out this new blog. I'm moving out of my old webpage coz it seems nobody uses it aymore...so old...

I'm a writer, I write about music...I love music...maybe if y'all have time come take a look at this site. half of all the artist there I made especially for JOHN MAYER:
http://www.wikimusicguide.com/Main_Page

This site ain't bad at all...I like it...I feel at home.

What else can I say? I am a complicated girl trying to find resolution to my problems and all my queries. I have so many I dunno where to start.

My mind's in a chaotic battle if I should sleep or continue writing for the night. No more coffee, starting to run out of cigi's as well. What's an addict got to do?

As long as my insomnia stays at the back of my neurons, I'm safe to sleep early tonight.

It just seems so hard to close your eyes and miss all the magnificent things in this world.

Sleep is overrated. Awake is wrecking.